Insomnia
Most people out there don't know that I suffer from this. Some people out there don't even understand how it works. Insomnia doesn't mean that you can't sleep at all. Insomnia is actually any type of trouble going to sleep or staying asleep. This is usually attributed to stress when it happens for a little while. And while the problem does get worse for me in times of stress, its a little more permanent in my case.
Ever since I can remember, I have had trouble staying asleep. I would wake up at weird times of the night. And I often would make my parents crazy when I would wake up at six in the morning because it usually led to my turning on the TV since I used to be scared of the dark back then. Watching TV while going to sleep is not a good thing and usually makes insomnia worse. But back then the worry of all the horrible things that could happen to a five year old in the dark didn't help me get much sleep either. The good side was that I would always catch most of the Saturday Morning Cartoons.
As I grew older the problem became more about going to sleep than staying asleep. Puberty and worrying about all the stupid things that puberty came with (trying to be "cool", girls, etc) made trying to clear my mind and go to sleep difficult. I often wished that I could turn my brain off (turns out pot will do this just fine but alas it is illegal and any I may or may not have done was not enough). That's when I became very good friends with late-night talk show hosts like David Letterman, Conan O'Brien and Bill Maher (his show would run at 1 AM in Brownsville). Since then only the things that I worry about have changed. Now I worry about classes, the future, women (guess not everything changes ;) ) .
I have tried many ways to fix this too but some of the cures are impossible and those that I can do don't work (I have even tried not watching TV before going to bed which was hard for me). For example, one of the websites about insomnia suggests that I not use the bed for anything other than sleeping. This is pretty hard when my living space consists of two uncomfortable chairs and two beds. I also tried sleeping pill for a little while. These worked great, but I don't want to be a guy who depends on them to go to sleep every night. Some have suggested that I stop napping in the middle of the day. But the napping is a result of the insomnia rather than the insomnia being a result of the napping.
Like I said, it is not all bad. The night seems to be my most creative point because the times that I am trying to go to sleep my brain is fighting me with every thought it can. And this has made all-nighters relatively easy for the first few hours. And the constant need to keep me entertained during my unnecessarily wakeful hours has led me to discover some interesting things on the internet (not all of them pornographic :) ) . So worry not for me. I've learned to deal with it. Just forgive me if I sleep at odd hours of the day.
Ever since I can remember, I have had trouble staying asleep. I would wake up at weird times of the night. And I often would make my parents crazy when I would wake up at six in the morning because it usually led to my turning on the TV since I used to be scared of the dark back then. Watching TV while going to sleep is not a good thing and usually makes insomnia worse. But back then the worry of all the horrible things that could happen to a five year old in the dark didn't help me get much sleep either. The good side was that I would always catch most of the Saturday Morning Cartoons.
As I grew older the problem became more about going to sleep than staying asleep. Puberty and worrying about all the stupid things that puberty came with (trying to be "cool", girls, etc) made trying to clear my mind and go to sleep difficult. I often wished that I could turn my brain off (turns out pot will do this just fine but alas it is illegal and any I may or may not have done was not enough). That's when I became very good friends with late-night talk show hosts like David Letterman, Conan O'Brien and Bill Maher (his show would run at 1 AM in Brownsville). Since then only the things that I worry about have changed. Now I worry about classes, the future, women (guess not everything changes ;) ) .
I have tried many ways to fix this too but some of the cures are impossible and those that I can do don't work (I have even tried not watching TV before going to bed which was hard for me). For example, one of the websites about insomnia suggests that I not use the bed for anything other than sleeping. This is pretty hard when my living space consists of two uncomfortable chairs and two beds. I also tried sleeping pill for a little while. These worked great, but I don't want to be a guy who depends on them to go to sleep every night. Some have suggested that I stop napping in the middle of the day. But the napping is a result of the insomnia rather than the insomnia being a result of the napping.
Like I said, it is not all bad. The night seems to be my most creative point because the times that I am trying to go to sleep my brain is fighting me with every thought it can. And this has made all-nighters relatively easy for the first few hours. And the constant need to keep me entertained during my unnecessarily wakeful hours has led me to discover some interesting things on the internet (not all of them pornographic :) ) . So worry not for me. I've learned to deal with it. Just forgive me if I sleep at odd hours of the day.
posted by Oscar at 2:30 AM
1 Comments:
Interesting. Very interesting. Or is it that what you write really isnt really worth mentioning BUT you are interesting enough to MAKE it interesting? hmmm..:)i like your posts because you dont talk about stupid shit like picking at TAMUK's band and have just about half of their so-called Fraternity members writing you angry, mean comments and have a genuis friend who tells one of those members your name and maybe even where you live and what time your home and what you drive and bleh. U should try reading at night, that helps :) And at least you dont sleep walk thats a little more dangerous...
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